I think it’s fair to say that I have had a tendency toward the melancholy in my life. Just recently, I wrote about how when I was depressed, I didn’t want to get “better”; I felt that happiness would be fake somehow. What I didn’t really mention was the fact Read more…
After S’s father left, and my friends started to find out what had been going on, one of them christened him Twunty. This is what his name will be from now on. I’ve written a lot about my breakdown. I’ve written about my birth story and the things that Read more…
When I was younger I was painfully, mortifyingly shy. I can remember being in first school and wetting myself on a regular basis, not because I didn’t know I needed to go to the toilet, but because I was petrified of asking my teacher if I could go to Read more…
I went on national TV and talked about my breakdown. In the days following, I received numerous messages of support – from friends, from family members, from people I’d not seen for years or was only really vaguely acquainted with in the first place, and from perfect strangers. Comments Read more…
I make no secret of the fact I had a breakdown in 2010. I think it probably stuns a few people when I talk about it, but it was a year or more of my life; I can’t just pretend none of it happened. I think a lot of Read more…
This is the latest in a series of posts about a breakdown I had in 2010. The first post is here. I have no idea how to live my life. I feel like the last couple of months I’ve been in some sort of weird stasis; whole days and Read more…
This is the next part of my story of my breakdown. The first part can be found here. This is something originally written in 2010/11… At home, I sit and look at the Prozac. Do I want to do this? These little blue and green pills, they look so Read more…
I have actually published the full version of this as a book, which will be available to buy soon. April 2010. Summer seems to be coming early this year; it’s bright and warm in April. I love the sun; it always seems to make things better. Except this year, it Read more…
I had a nervous breakdown in 2010. While I was recovering, I met a man and became pregnant quite quickly. I wrote this in November 2011, when I was around 3 months pregnant with S. I had come off my antidepressants when I first found out I was pregnant, and Read more…