This week has been tough, and something of an eye-opener. I’ve found that I have a real sugar addiction, and a habit too – I’m in the habit of eating (and drinking) sweet things, and when I don’t have sugar I get awful sumptoms – and will binge on whatever I can find. This is definitely something I need to work on!

This week I also got my login for a site called New Me. It’s a site that provides you with a workout regime and diet suggestions – but also a diary area where you can record what you eat and drink, as well as what exercise you do. It shows you clearly how many calories you’ve eaten today, and how many you’ve burned off as well as a breakdown of percentage intakes of fats, proteins and carbs. I’m not necessarily counting calories because I know that not all calories are the same – but it is handy to see just how many calories I’m eating, and how much certain exercises will burn off. I think I react well to this kind of site, that tracks what you eat adn the calories you burn off; I end up competing against myself to see if I can increase my percentage intake of protein and things like that.

My biggest high point of this week is that I’ve managed to get S out of the habit of needing one of those Fruit Shoot drinks  – or two, or three. What started off as a treat if we were in town soon became me buying multi packs of them because it was cheaper in the long run – which meant they were in the house, and she began to expect them all the time. I’ve managed to hide the few that were left in the house, and began putting water into fancy drink bottles for her. In the mornings she has milk, and the rest of the time she’ll usually have water – possibly because she sees me drinking from an Evian bottle all day, and wants to be like me. She’s very pleased with herself when she finishes her bottle and gets to have it refilled! We do still sometimes stop at the shop on the way home from nursery – but that particular shop only sells tiny cartons of apple juice, which are still far from ideal, but a lot smaller than a bottle of the squash she was having before.

Goal for last week

Last week’s goal was to completely stop drinking Coke. I did have a couple of days where I didn’t drink any, and a couple where I drank that awful Coke Life stuff instead of actual Coke. My problem is that without sugar, I have absolutely no tolerance for anything and have awful headaches. With a 4-day weekend as well as S’s normal day off nursery on Wednesday, I really don’t want to be taking out my detox on her – so I have been drinking a little. What’s interesting is that on Thursday I gave in and opened a bottle of Coke… normally that would go down in a few minutes and give me an instant relief from feeling tired, headachey and grumpy. This time I forced down about half the bottle in order to get a bit of relief from feeling bad – but I didn’t enjoy it at all.

Goal for this week

This week it is S’s birthday so we are spending the day together on Thursday, and then having a joint party with a friend at the weekend. I think it would be unrealistic to say I want to be completely sugar free by the end of the week to be honest! Instead, I’m going to say that by the end of the week, I want to still be committed to going sugar free, and to not have pigged out on sugary crap.

Exercise

I’ve not done my Davina dvd at all this week. I began my New Me plan on Thursday and that comes with its own fitness plan where they give you the exercises to do. Thursday’s exercise was to walk for 20 minutes but I ended up walking for longer because I went for a walk after nursery drop off. I’ve also done some exercises at home, and when I go for walks with S I use Map My Walk to track how far we walk, and record that on the site.

Food/Drink

I’ve had a couple of awful binges this week. On Monday I was in a rush between work and nursery pick-up, and knew I needed to pick up some Easter eggs for family and friends. I hadn’t counted how many though, so I just picked up ten, thinking that should be enough. When I had put S into bed that evening I discovered I had over estimated and actually only needed 8 eggs – so I ended up eating the spare two. This was awful as I didn’t really enjoy them, and felt pretty sick for the rest of the evening. Worst of all, I woke up at 3am unable to get back to sleep and feeling hung over.

Although a binge is never a good thing, I think it’s good that I recognised I didn’t enjoy eating them, and that I noticed the effects the chocolate had on me. In the past my diet has been so filled with crap I’ve not noticed a sugar high or how any particular food made me feel.  I do need to put some sort of coping mechanism in place to make sure it doesn’t happen again though – a binge is worse than just saying “right, I’m going to have some chocolate” and just eating it!

Using New Me to track my food has made me realise that actually, on a lot of days I’m probably not eating enough food. So far every day I’ve had “left over” calories at the end of the day – which is not a bad thing, but I’ve a feeling there are too many left over calories, and I should be eating more. I will work on filling that gap with more vegetables this week!

Weight & Measurements

Weight: 167lb. Same as last week.
Neck: 14″ same as last week
Bust: 37″ Same as last week
Waist: 35″ Same as last week
Hips: 39″ Same as last week
R&L Thigh: 23″/23″ Last week: 23.5″/23
R&L Calf: 14.5″/14.5″ Last week: 14.5″/14″

Aside from my legs, no loss – which is actually a good thing, considering that I’m still drinking Coke and had a couple of sugar binges. Hopefully this week I can stop both of those things, stick to my New Me exercise plan and lose a pound or two!